just when I thought I could spend valentines day and your birthday with you, everything came crashing down. because of my fucking silly mistake, I lost you all over again. I’ve lost you once because of my lie, now I’ve lost you again because of the same reason. in so fucking stupid to do it again which make me lose you. I’ve been crying in silence the whole day. nobody knows what I’m going through, nobody knows how I feel, and nobody cares. Losing you is my biggest regret in life. no matter how small the lie can be, a lie is still a lie. I get it. it’s so painful everytime I think about you. I love you so much yet I can’t understand why I’m repeating the fucking mistake. baby pls come back to me I need you so much…
really have nowhere, no one to turn to, so I decided to post my rants here on tumblr. anyway nobody reads this. boyfriend was mad at me for meeting my guy friends yesterday. and all he said was “do whatever you want, since our mindsets are different, whats the point.” what made my heart shattered was when he said “our relationship was a joke”, “I feel like I’m wasting my time” I’m crying as I typed this.. why isit always me giving in. why isit that my bf can’t understand that I need to have some time with my friends. I know I have alot more guy friends than girlfriends.. but forbidding me to meet my guys is as good as breaking off contact with all my friends. My girlfriends suck, all they know is bf bf & bf. they don’t even have time for me. bf dont allow me to meet friends? fine. but you can’t spend more time with me. Every week I go out on my own like I’m a depressed shit. shopping alone, eat alone, swim alone, everything alone. this is really unfair to me. but why do I still stick to him? because I love him and I dont want to give up on this relationship. sounds stupid and blind? yes I am. nobody understands me, not even my bf. how sad can my life be…
Anonymous asked: are you going to the beatles: the lost concert" movie when it comes out next month?
Nope.
